upsi chooses

peace beat

meditation

dance

with each beat

summon peace

settle into new

pattern

persistant

resistance

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8.4.19-15.4.19∆on masturbation self love and healing

return retreats to

sky swirl nest upsidogi

found her clover patch

seed pod to her right

five universum wait within husks

open with ice-fire

upsidogi goes

inside to learn again peace

reflects from center

of a pumping kunt

beats of-on dirt swirl sky swirl

from trusting balance

DON’T TAKE CARE AND I BREAK

the courage i found

again inside my center

this time through black eye

GET UP BREATH BEGIN AGAIN

upsidogi done

taking shit its time now

to build! new ways. go!

SHE HAS BEEN BUILDING ALL ALONG

and the great war comes

to its close as peace ripples

return amidst fear

resistance against

accepting violent cycle

indeed will end too

is ending now for

we’ve been planting the peace

seeds in abundance

XX WE GOT THIS

gold palette of late

day berlin spring sun summons

long upsi shadows

slither fold into corners

down stairs the silent gray

upsidogi dance

from split tree trunk kunt

births a sampling kock from my

upsidedowngirl view

AS I STAND STILL BEFORE HER

all i can build. i will wash me. a temple. for the kunts of berlin. the birthing parts. the builders and mothers lovers peace makers. one old juniper one young. a pile of sand. a basket of stones. an abandoned mirror and vase. wooden tools worn by dead hands. a corner listening to the caw and the echos of berlin. all i can build. i will wash me an alter to my sobriety. stone on stone scratch-honor each day. rusted metal placed in proximity chime with this touch.

CHIME FOR AND TO AND OF THE TRüMMERFRAUEN I FEEL THEM I AM THEM AND THEIR CHILDREN PLAYING IN AND WITH THE RUBBLE

WE ARE

freaks wander to feet’s

beat through nature’s persistent

balancing out act

nature’s fractioning

patterns swirl away from

center space to grow

each way of being

tight twisting in to out from

abundant balance

[ON SPRING SHADOWS FALLING ON BARE SKIN

berlin sun sneaky

sinks warmth into swamp’s frigid

air emenates]

[ON LEARNING FROM ANIMAL PATHS-TERRITORY, MY DEDICATION TO A REPEATED-PLAYFUL-WALKING-MEDITATION AND CREATIVE HEALING

with body’s wanders

pull focus smell-sound-my-ways

through to center

of field sky swirls

around peace dance through nature

human sancturary

what was a grave grows

into new expression stones

and dirt moved by hands

built an alter for

my addictions transform day

by day each anew]

[ON THREE WAYS OF BEING-GROWING-DYEING

baby seed i am

gonna plant you then ill bleed

and ill feed you

open window bells

ringing echo dances with

birds singing with sun

into the under

ground into numbing grounds pain

relief all the ways]

[ON EXTRAORDINARY NEW KNOWLEDGE AND HOPE

first image of black

hole possible through teamwork

around this world]

[ON THE WE I-WE ARE TRANSFORMING TO BE

ask for help and i

understand-learn-grow beyond

this body-vessel]

[ON BEING A CREATOR ANOTHER KIND OF BIRTHER NOT A MOTHER

waxing moon she pulls

egg from left side of serpent

swirl moves toward birthing

trust trust this body

nurture honor cycle’s will

be birth bleed transform

energy inside

upsidogi releases

new forms of being

>>> ON TECHNO MY BODY MY PLEASURE MY TOOL

moon is veiled draping

her glowing kunt in gold black

space dance between thighs]

and to end this here and now >

[ON GRATITUDE AWE AND JOY

no matter where the

sunset is incredible

this spinning world]

xx

upsidogi

14.4.19-4.5.19 ∆on surrendering. and getting acquainted with the ego

29.3.19-7.4.19 new mooon laid a blue – egg upsi found against the - walls crumble to dirt