the missed spaces, the missed places, the missed times, the missed rhymes, the missed persons I could have been or will be, the fear that restricts me, the choices that elate me, the food that prolongs, the life that kills and opens and winds up and scares and tears and screws, inspires and heightens and pitches and rolls and drowns and crowns and takes hold of and molds and breaks and pours into and empties and burns.

and here we steal away together

29.3.19-7.4.19 new mooon laid a blue – egg upsi found against the - walls crumble to dirt

the radical act

of watching the clouds to bird song

as dusk dissolves day.

it takes building a

ritual to get to space

safe enough to play

to stand in front of

bobbing branch blooms only to

appreciate them.

return to nature’s

uneven tits, balance me.

rituals to heal.

how the joy dance with

its excitement chemicals

can summon courage

to come together

a throbbing body shifting

activating peace

sharing energy

unfolding leaf’s only speed

undulating pace.

cherry blossoms grace

barbs atop wire atop

wall upsidogi

is close to many

males masculine macho, close

to different ways

different vessels’

experience, ask questions

to understand-feel.

upsi summons pink

and neon green of spring buds

pushing through the bark

roots burrow decay

feeds always translucent shoots

break surface again

moss electric green

grows in shrapnels’ pocks paints

past’s hate with living.

SPRING SUMMONS COURAGE SUMMON SPRING’S COURAGE

birthing parts are paired

with pain of pushing through to

new way of being

i asked for a pan

to sing me through and out of

suffering. i dance.

we’ve told the hero

story played it out to same

end. again. over.

don’t consume, observe

then dance make harmony with

dusk dawn dreams between

PEACH PINK WANING CRESCENT MOON

interrupt pattern

weaver knows how to do warp

weft together dance

warp and weft pattern

my stillness, holds bobbin, moves

through to create strength.

crow and echo caw.

warp and weft pattern present and

past. weaver chooses.

COURAGE TODAY LOOKS

LIKE A RAISED FACE, EYES MEET THE

OTHER IS DISSOLVED.

sister answers. mother answers. birthing parts answer. accept us. protect us. heal us. crow and echo caw. ripples radiate and return.

WASH MY GORGEOUS KUNT

OF THEIR HATE THEIR GREED THEIR SHAME.

PHOENIX IN WAITING.

we got this

xx

8.4.19-15.4.19∆on masturbation self love and healing

18?19.3.19-28.3.19 the revolutionary act of standing still in rays of winter sun and the roaming part of human beings